what do I do now?

things went from shitty to insane
at least I understood shitty
she left a comment on my myspace
damn myspace...
"Hey girly! Just wondering how
you have been. Long time no see
or chat. Send me a message or something
and let me know whats up."
..umm WHAT THE FUCK!!??!?!?!
I don't understand why she
is saying anything to me
i looked at her myspace
her relationship staus changed
she's single..i can't even
explain how impossible it has been
to keep hopes of that from entering my mind
amazing...3 days ago i would tell you
she hated me, today i'm fighing myself
trying to stop hoping that we had a chance
I didn't message her back right away
I wanted to, I wanted to message her and
tell her how happy i was to hear from her
how much i thought of her
how much i love her
yeah exactly what a terrible idea
I emailed her today
very planned..few details so hopefully
we will have more to talk about later
I hate that, I feel manipulative
She read the message but sent nothing back
so now I'm so confused
i don't understand...
why do i let myself hope so much